Bad mood.

This morning I read someone else's blog about how they have realized how little time they give to God, that they only give their scraps of time and they plan on becoming more disciplined in this. This REALLY convicted me....but I haven't been proactive in that conviction. Even now as I type, I know that I can be spending time in the word and God can perform miracles in my heart, but I just don't want to. Frankly, I don't want to do anything. I don't want to go to CASA. I don't want to go to bible study. I don't want to move from my futon to make myself food or get a drink of water. I feel apathetic, lazy and pathetic. Also, I got the pictures from Steve of the Event from last night and saw pictures of myself and couldn't even recognize my own picture. I don't see the person I feel I am in those pictures...my mood is no good.